I am still too tired. I had a headache all day. I am trying to wait until 7 p.m. to go to bed. Is that ridiculous or what?!
I spoke with my sponsor this morning. She was home from the hospital, but may be going back. I wish I didn't know what I know about pathophysiology, I might be easily convinced that what she has is not a big problem. But having written up more than one death review of people who have died from this condition, I am not taking this lightly, and I know that she is not either. As we got off the phone today, we told each other our "I love you's" and we both said "good-bye." It felt odd. I got off the phone and cried. (Am I ever going to have a day when I don't write "I cried?") Some day I am sure I will. I am hopeful that her condition will resolve and I know that she is too.
The good news is - I have a sponsor I love. She loves me too. She has helped me for nearly 15 years. We have both stayed sober for all of that time. She is 11 years older than I am and sober 11 years longer than I.
I would say that is, all in all, very good news. AA works when a person follows a few simple directions. And what a wonderful thing it is.