Friday, January 20, 2012

The kindness of bloggers

Last night when I got home, I walked across the ice covered street to the mailbox.  In my little mailbox was a key for the big mailbox - and I wondered who could have sent me something.  When I saw the package, I remembered that another blogger said she would make me a pair of pajamas and mail them to me!  I thought the package was rather heavy for a pair of p.j.s, and it was.  There were also two pounds of beautiful cheese and a jar of home-tapped organic maple syrup!  How wonderful!  Thanks to Patty at Calm Acceptance.  It is amazing that over the years, just by looking at a computer screen, we get to know each other and care for each other.   I am humbled by the generosity.

Today there is a hospital-wide going away party for me.  Oh yikes.  I am a bit terrified.  And grateful.  I didn't think they would have a party for me since I am not retiring, just moving on.  But they are, and I am glad.  That place is such a part of me.  I will try not to cry - or at least not cry much.  I do not intend to be weeping, with puffy eyes, and snotty nose.  I have an image to maintain!

Yesterday I was called into a meeting of hospital management.  After I got there, I realized I was there in my new job capacity.  Well, I couldn't answer their questions because I am not in my new job yet.  I told them that.  Who expects someone to be able to do their new job before they even start?  And that is one more example of things that have frustrated me over the years in my current job.  Current for the next three days.

Gratefully moving on.  Stepping into the unknown.  For all I know, I will hate my new job.  That is the chance you take.

I was sober maybe 4 or 5 years when I saw my one and only Indiana Jones movie.  There was a scene in that movie that seemed to me to be the perfect illustration of living when you turn your will and life over to the care of God.  I tried to find a video of it, but all the you tubes have other people's analogies pasted all over them.
  But this is how I have found life in sobriety from time to time.  I just have to step out into the chasm and the bridge appears.  Scary, but good.  Really, really good.

Thank you God.

9 comments:

Have Myelin? said...

I found you over at Lou's. A sweet comment, you left so I came here. =)

You are right about the kindness of bloggers....without my blogger friends I don't think I would have made it through the last 2 years and 7 months. My daughter died from alcoholism and it is with their help I make it day to day...

Jeremy said...

I couldn't agree more. Enjoy today!

Syd said...

I knew that there would be a party. Enjoy the day and the party! The bloggers are like friends that I have but don't see. I know that you are here and can email or write a comment. This is part of my meditation and reading for the day. And what a great part it is.

Let Go, Let God said...

Congrats on having a community who want to celebrate your being apart of them, awake and present. Your posts speaks a lot of things to me. Thank you.

Barbara said...

I've received things from blog friends too and its so meaningful to have something tangible from them.

How did the party go?

You have pretty feet.

atomic momma said...

Mary Christine - you as your sober self are such a gift to all of us out here. Don't be afraid to shed genuine tears in front of your co-workers when they celebrate their love for you. Tears tear down walls and that is something you do every day with your blog.

dAAve said...

I'm bettin' that you cried a river today. All good tears.

Pammie said...

There is such a humbling joy in the miracle that people are sad to see you go. I believe that this is one of our bonds my sister, the knowing of how miraculous that is. God must be so happy with his handiwork in your life.

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

YAY God!!! I am so grateful for all of you wonderful bloggers too!