|The site of a beautiful bike ride yesterday|
|The sight of something I didn't want to see in my rear view mirror this morning.|
While I was driving there, I was shocked! Shocked! to see a police car pull out behind me with lights spinning. I pulled over and fully expected the policeman to apologize and say he was in error turning on all those jarring lights! Instead, he told me I was driving 59 mph in a 35 mile zone. I said "35?" Seriously? I have driven down this road nearly every day for 10 years, I thought the speed limit was 55. He said it was 55 further down the road, but not where I was, it was 35 there . This will cost me $195. and I am not sure how many points... he told me it was 8, but if I mailed in my payment, it would be 4. But the back of the ticket said if you mail it in, it is reduced by 2 points - not 4. It also made me 10 minutes late to church... with a woman sitting waiting for me so she could go home.
I drove away saying "It's only money." It is only money. It is only money. But right now, I don't have $195 laying around. Just like I don't have the $4,000 I need for dental work. I know some of you make so much money you have to find ways to throw it away, but my situation seems to be getting more dire every day. It is taking more and more work to keep away the fear of financial insecurity.
Trust and reliance upon God is my only answer. Well, and some severe belt tightening... when it feels like it is as tight as it can get now. I can put forward my best effort and know that I can do no more than that.
And let me state the obvious... when you are sober, you can look at those lights in the mirror and know that it is a pain in the wallet, but know you are not getting cuffed and taken away. And that is a good thing. The officer asked me if there was a reason I was going so fast, and I was able to say, at 3:49 a.m., that I needed to get to church by 4:00 a.m. Well, that and the fact that I thought the speed limit was 55, not 35.
I will get myself dressed for work, look as nice as I can, and put in a good day's work for a relatively good day's pay. I will try to be an asset to my workplace and to be of service to those God puts in my life today. That's all I know how to do.
I will likely stay sober again today and I hope you do too.