I feel sick. I felt pretty sick all weekend, and not too great yesterday. I have had a headache since Saturday. I didn't want to be sick for Christmas, but if ever there were a Christmas to be sick for, this is it.
The only plan I have this Christmas is to go to a meeting on Christmas Eve morning, go to Midnight Mass on Christmas Eve night, and go to a movie on Christmas Day with my daughter and one of her many boyfriends. So really, I can do all these things sick. There are no big demands to make big meals or do any major entertaining. It is good. I don't really like it, but it is good.
Yesterday I called my church to see if they needed more hams for their Christmas baskets. They were completely out of hams, but had plenty of turkeys. I went to the grocery store and picked up a couple of nice hams. I took them to the church and as I walked in, someone said "that lady has a ham!" It seems the people picking up the baskets were clamoring for ham - and not turkey. Someone grabbed a ham right out of my hand! I was grateful to be the giver and not the taker in that equation.
I am not telling you this to tell you how great I am, but to just suggest that if you have a couple extra bucks, you might call around and see what you can do. There are a lot of hurting people out there and the normal supply of charity is pretty dried up. One of the great lessons I learned in sobriety was to learn to give without expectation. Now THAT is a gift!
Take care out there, it is a treacherous time for drunks.