This morning I woke up at 5, and looked at the thermometer (actually that is a lie, I looked at the weather app on my iPhone) and discovered it was 16º outside. I looked in the mirror at the bags under my eyes. I looked into my soul to see that I am 100% exhausted and decided not to join my running club. This is the first Saturday in nearly 2 years I have missed for reasons other than being out of town or otherwise engaged. Never because I "didn't feel like it." But today I didn't feel like it and I am glad I didn't go.
I went to the 6:30 meeting instead and found that it was the birthday meeting for two of my friends. One with 14 years and the other with 26. I was so glad to be there. The 26 year old was the man I was in a car wreck with a couple of years ago. I was glad I could simply wish him a happy birthday without mentioning the accident. And the 14 year old? I love him. I have known him since he got out of prison and came to the group. When my daughter got sober, he helped her tremendously. He is a good, true-blue AA member.
My house needs to be cleaned but I am afraid I can't muster the energy to do that either. So, I am sitting here in front of the fire, watching TV and blogging. I went to the grocery store on the way home from the meeting this morning and got the makings for chicken corn chowder - I have cut, chopped, blended, and sauteed, and that is all bubbling away on the stove. This all sounds like an excellent way to spend a Saturday to me. A nap later. Then the boyfriend is taking me out for dinner. I am excited about that.
So peaceful, so happy. So relieved. Last week was massive and I am glad it is over. And happy about the new direction in my life.
"God I offer myself to Thee, to build with me and do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy power, Thy love, and Thy way of life. May I do Thy will always." -- Third Step Prayer -- from the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous. (I am too tired to get the book, so forgive me if I have gotten a word or two wrong. Also, I don't know what page it is on because I had a sponsor who told me to never get to that point where I memorized the book or page numbers. But I can't help but know this prayer, I have said it so many times.)
12 comments:
Cold outside. Warm inside.
TGIS. Thank God it's Saturday.
It sounds like a wonderful day. :o)
Good to hear you are having a restful weekend -- that pic of snow falling on the city is lovely.
I am just now catching up here. Your chowder sounds so good. Glad that you are relaxing.
I just got off the phone, with my friend. We ended by saying the serenity prayer together. We both needed to.
God bless Mary C.
ros. Don't give up on me yet, please.
It is a good combo.
Yeah, I agree, Saturday is good. Well, goodness! It is now your Sabbath!
It was a wonderful day!
Yes, it's a wonderful weekend. I thought the picture was pretty too, thanks.
The chowder is quite yummy. But then, a pint of heavy cream would probably make anything taste good.
Ros, I am so glad to hear from you. I worry so much when your blog disappears. You remain in my prayers every single day. I am not giving up on you, don't YOU give up on you either.
God bless you!
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