Sunday Sunday

You know, there is just nothing to take pictures of at this time of the year.  I flip back through the last year of photos every day when I post something here.  The photos start out ugly in January and stay that way for a couple of months.  Then there is a bud popping out of the ground - a tulip, a crocus, a daffodil... and in a month or so, there is an explosion of color and life.  But for now?  It just isn't pretty.    Those are last year's shoes... I had to abandon them after just a few miles, my feet hurt so bad.  They are my beating around shoes now.  I have them on right now as a matter of fact.

What a weekend.  I have just been running around non-stop.  It is nice.  I had a birthday party to attend yesterday afternoon which was super fun.  Then I went shopping and bought nothing!  There just wasn't anything I want bad enough to pay for right now.  I want some new clothes for the new job, but I don't have a real good idea of what I need.  I do not want to purchase another suit.  I have enough of them and I hate wearing them.  I would like to buy some simple dresses that can be dressed up with jewelry, scarves, etc.  -- Damn, I just like to dress the way I like to dress!  Several people at my going away party made the comment that I "have the wardrobe for downtown."  I think that is relative.

This afternoon I am going out for lunch and to a movie with my boyfriend.  That should be fun.  I hope to have some moments where I am not moving around, darting from here to there.  I need that.

And then, this morning I went to a meeting.  Had I not been there to meet a sponsee, I would have walked out half way through.  There are few things that aggravate me as much as a meeting where the chair refuses to chair and just sits and stares into space when no one will talk.  What a waste of time!  Oh, I know people love to look "serene," and say they don't have to fill up the silence, but really !  There were new people there.  Can't we act like grown ups and either volunteer to talk or have a chair who will take responsibility for moving things along?

I know people say they have never been to a bad meeting, but I am not one of them.  My sponsor isn't one of them either.  I didn't check my brain at the door to my first meeting.  Some of the things we carry on with really contribute to people thinking we are a cultish group of weirdos they want nothing to do with.

It is going to be a good day.  I am sober, a bunch of people I love are sober.  God is in his heaven, and all is well.