Saturday, March 08, 2008

The Worst Run Ever

This is one of my knees after my fall this morning. The other is very similar, except it has a little piece of gravel imbedded in it. My hands are also scraped up. I fell 1.03 miles into a 10 mile run. I was at a park with lots of other runners, so thankfully I had a little group of people who stopped to help me. Man, I really fell! I was seeing stars and everything. I did manage to get back up and run away, I thought I felt pretty decent until the last 2 miles when every step hurt.

By the time I got into my car to drive home, I was crying. I always find it very interesting who I call when I am feeling horrible. Today, the only person I wanted to talk to was my daughter - the drug addict. I called her. God bless her, she can be as crazy and strung out as a loon, but she is always sweet to me - she always has been. She offered to come over and help me, but all I wanted to do is take a bath and go to bed.

I have taken the bath, I am now eating a bowl of cereal, and I will go to bed.

Now I will ask if you are so inclined if you would say a prayer for me. I am really not feeling well at all. I think I fell WAY harder than I realized. I think it is physically effecting me, but also emotionally effecting me. It is terribly discouraging to think that I am so old that I am falling all the damn time. Thank you for your prayers. And for not criticizing me.

11 comments:

Scott W said...

Bleh. You will be all right because there are lots of prayers being offered up today. Just take care, please.

Zane-nawwaa said...

A fall is the most helpless feeling. Just REST the w/e away. Your body is telling you Im TIRED.
Prayers your way. Loving you.

Mark said...

Hmmmm, so, you're training to run a marathon in what is arguably the most beautiful state in the Union, you have the time to do it, you have a job that allows you the time to do it, you have a car and a license, a daughter who will talk with you, your own house... what else?

Let's see, if I'm not wrong you're about 5 to 7 years younger than I am, you're sober about 7 or so years longer than I am, I'm certain your life is a miracle beyond true description, you take the risk to put "yourself" on a global internet each day, you have meetings, meetings, meetings all around you and go to them, you help newcomers all the time, folks online look to you as a power of example and...

You think you're old??? I need to practice walking to make it up the stairs to our apartment after taking the bus to the mall to put in another application for employment that won't be responded to! My health insurance, my dental insurance and my paycheck are gone. My kids wouldn't talk to me on a bet. Unemployment will only last another 4 months. The miracle I thought was the love of my life disappeared in a cloud of her anger. I have trouble putting my socks and boots on by myself.

Want me to go on? I think you know what I'm getting at :)

Now, please, smile, because you know for a fact that God loves you, what else do you need?

Scott W said...

I forgot to say that picture makes my monkey weak.

Pam said...

Oh bless your precious heart darlin'!!!!
I'm so sorry that happened to you.
I always call my screwed up daughter too...when something bad happens to me...I think we do this because they know how it feels to hurt :(
I'm really sorry MC.

Zane-nawwaa said...

Hi again. You've been on my mind all day. A fall can be serious. Did you stumble or just fall. Two years ago I just fell, knocked the wind out of me. Over thenext 5 or 6 months I had several more falls. It started July 4 and ended in November. As it turned out it was a series of strokes. My only symptoms were just falling for no reason. Please take care of yourself.

dAAve said...

You're not old. You're just tired and feeling old. I know that feeling.
REST.

Pam said...

worrying about you this morning....so checking in.

Scott said...

MC, I'll say a prayer for you girl... Take it easy today, give your body a rest and try not to be too hard on yourself. I am 39 and I fall when I walk, much less when I run :-)

Syd said...

MC, I've been sick and am just reading your blog. I don't like falling either. Your knees remind me of when I would fall from my bicycle as a kid. I hope that you will feel better and take it easy for a few days.

Syd said...

MC, hope that you feel better. I don't like falls. I would mess up my knees when I'd fall from my bite when I was a kid. Take it easy.