It started on Saturday afternoon. I hope this will be the last day of it. Part of me wishes I could stay home today, but a larger part is glad I have a place to go where I have things to do and people to see. Maybe I will forget this head while there.
Yesterday my daughter walked away from the hospital. Her 72 hour hold was up and they let her go. She is clearly a danger to her self, a danger to others, and gravely disabled... but she does not have insurance. I have an opinion about this. Oh yes, I do. I am so grateful that I work at a non-profit where clinical decisions are NEVER based on ability to pay. I could not work at a healthcare facility where they let a woman who is out of her mind walk away in summer apparel, without a coat, on a snowy day. Walk away. As in, no car, no money, no one would pick her up - thinking that they would not let her go if she had no where to go and no way to get there - but we were all wrong.
I am now going to get into the bathtub and take a nice hot bath. I am going to fix myself a cup of coffee for the road - and it is good coffee. I am packing my breakfast of yogurt and strawberries - I will eat it later at my desk. I will enjoy these things. I am breaking it into teensy steps today. The big picture is too big for me.