Saturday, July 24, 2010

By the Grace of God...

And the program of Alcoholics Anonymous, I have not had a drink of alcohol for 26 years today.

I truly have no words to express what this means to me.

Yesterday as I driving through downtown trying to get to my chiropractor's appointment on time, I looked around and thought - this is my home. This city is my home because I got sober here. As I drove past places, I was flooded with memories of things past. They are all sober things because I have no drunken history in this place.

When I say that 26 years is a lifetime, I guess I could be misunderstood - you could take that to sound like arrogance. When I say I am humbled, I guess you have no way of knowing how profoundly I am humbled. You see, I am clear on the fact that I have never been a stellar worker. I got clear early on that this is not a transaction. I don't do "x" amount of work and get "x" amount of sobriety, peace of mind, and serenity. I have done "x" amount of work, and God has blessed me far in excess of anything I could have ever done. I could have "worked" for a lifetime and never have "earned" the life I have today. You simply cannot get here from there. Not that my life is perfect because it certainly isn't.

I am grateful beyond words that tomorrow I get to go be with old friends to celebrate my birthday. Someone will certainly tell me that 26 years is a good start. I am a junior member among them and I am so grateful for that.

Thank you bloggers for your generosity. You have been very kind to me.

xoxoxoxo,
mary christine

14 comments:

wendy said...

happy anniversary.

thank you for sharing your experience.

Carverlane said...

So glad that I got to meet you, and yes, you are obviously humble and grateful! I will be celebrating your sobriety today and sending good thoughts your way.

Kim from sAn Antonio

Hope said...

Happy 26th Birthday Mary!

dAAve said...

I think you've done a commendable job.
So far.

Happy 26th!!!!

Syd said...

You are great in my book. Have a happy sober day.

Pam said...

thinking of you this birthday weekend!!
ya little new comer you! ;)

~~BRB Queen~~ said...

Congrats!!

~~BRB Queen~~ said...

Congrats!!

Hope said...

Just had to add that when I was putting up the posters on the wall today before our meeting I thought of you when I put up the one that said, But For The Grace of God. It made this recovery world seem smaller and larger at the same time. Glad to be journeying with you.

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

Happy SoBirthday!!!! (well belatedly anyway)

Your posts have been a wonderful enhancement to me (and I know others) as we continue to share in the fellowship and the wonderful blessings that are expressed here!

Thanks so much for being a part of the fellowship I have craved and now feel so much a part of.

It's good to know friends and fellows can be found everywhere!

Scott said...

MC, yay 26 years! I understand your gratitude and you don't need to quantify it to us, HP knows :-)

((((MC))))

Willa said...

Happy 26th Birthday, Mary!

Thanks for sharing your experience, strength and hope - it has helped me so much.

steveroni said...

Have a wonderful and happy 26th annual celebration today.

Anonymous said...

Well done, have not read your blog for a while, great to read a few posts today.