Friday, July 30, 2010


My group heads out at 4:45 a.m. tomorrow. Our route is 40 miles from here, so I need to leave the house at 4 a.m. I need to be up before 3, because I need to eat and do other things that you need to do before you head out for a 16 mile run. I am actually excited about this.

Today I went to work and smiled as much as I could. I acted as pleasant as I could and worked as hard as I could.

I thank God I have this program and I learned to take responsibility for myself. Not others, just myself. I don't need to take responsibility for others taking advantage of circumstances to attempt to "throw me under the bus," but I do need to acknowledge that ultimately I am responsible for a deadline not being met. Granted, it was a mutual decision, arrived at after much deliberation between my boss and myself - who is on vacation and cannot defend me now - something the other person knows.

It is OK. I know who I am. I do not need to defend myself. I know what I did. There was a deadline that was not met. I can take responsibility for that and let the chips fall where they may.

And now I need to find my headlamp because it is going to be dark when we start our run.

Woo hoo! This is going to be fun!


dAAve said...

Have courage and be boulder.

Syd said...

Hope the run is good. I hopemthatnthings straighten out at work.

Scott said...

I hope you have an awesome run MC! Enjoy!