Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Sadness

In the week leading up to my AA birthday (or anniversary if you would prefer), sometimes there is reflection, sometimes it is morbid reflection. This year it seems to be morbid reflection. I hope this will soon pass. For one thing, I don't have time for this because it is interfering with my life - and I have too much to do.

I see a psychologist every three months for a check-in after my (PTSD) crisis of last summer. I saw him yesterday and told him about what is going on in my life. He thought my tears and sadness were perfectly appropriate. He called my depression "situational" and that is always good news to me.

This seemingly came out of the blue... coinciding with my injury which is preventing me from running. Me thinks and he thinks it is not a coincidence.

I am going to see the chiropractor for my second appointment today. I have high hopes.

But lots of pressure. I have a presentation to give to hospital management at 1:30 - I haven't written it yet. I have a chiropractor appointment downtown at 11:00 - which means I am going to be gone from my office for at least 2 hours in the middle of the day. And here I sit... when I should bet at my desk writing this damn thing. I will get going now.

If you would, would you say a prayer that this dark cloud lifts from above my head?

Thank you.

16 comments:

Syd said...

Mary, I am praying that there will be lots of light in your life today. I believe there already is. God is right there with you.

drybottomgirl said...

I will keep you in my prayers, and as you well know this too shall pass......

Susie said...

I'm glad you asked. I will say a prayer for you.

Hope said...

Praying for you. Lighting a prayer candle, too.

Kim A. said...

Prayer said. You are taking care of yourself. Be gentle, kind and invest in some good kleenex. :-D

Namaste

Willa said...

I will pray that you will have an easier time today than you think.

dAAve said...

Done.

shadowlands said...

I will pray now, God bless.

Now one of your home baked pies with custard would distract me from my emotions but maybe it doesn't work that way when you are the baker?

Or maybe a sponge cake with jam and fresh cream? You have to smile to even say the words....fresh cream...... yummy!!

Sorry, I'll go and pray now.

AnyEdge said...

Thank you for sharing, Mary. One of the great things about this program to me is that when peopole ask how I am, they actually want to know. Our emotions are real to each other. So today, I'll carry the little portion I can for you. tomorrow you can have some of mine. We'll walk together.

marie said...

I pray that you see what God is trying to show you and for how I can be of service to you. I pray for peace to come your way. I can relate to how you feel. Tie a knot in the end of the rope and hold on, friend. Many blessings,
Marie

Kelly said...

Mary, I don't really know you, not as well as some of your readers, but I know depression and I ache just thinking about it existing in one other person in the world. My prayers are with you.

Em said...

praying for you of course :)

Yesterday I bought a 12 step prayer book and there is a prayer called "Run the Race" I thought of you, here it is :)

Help me this day, HP, to run with patience the race that is set before me. May neither opposition without nor discouragement within divert me from my progress in recovery. Inspire in me strength of mind, willingness, and acceptance, that I may meet all fears and difficulties with courage, and may complete the tasks set before me today.

that girl said...

sending you strength

Cynthia said...

It's true that life can be really hard but don't ever give up on your tomorrows. When I'm going through tough times, I try to remember the quote: "The only things that rob you of happiness today are regrets about yesterday, and worries about tomorrow."

steveroni said...

YEP!

Andrew said...

All the very best Mary Christine.