Blogging while upset (BWU) has never proven to be a good idea, but I am going to do it this morning.
I am considering not going to my running group just to avoid ugly confrontation.
We are devoting today's run to a woman who was killed while running (I'm not adding her name so I don't come in searches). It was a tragedy, it sounds like she was a wonderful woman. I am all for running in her honor.
But what has got me really upset is that they are framing this as a "reminder about safety." Really? Someone (an organization dedicated to running women) posted on facebook yesterday that women shouldn't run alone. Shouldn't run with headphones. Shouldn't run in remote places. Shouldn't, shouldn't, shouldn't.
To me this suggests that this woman would still be alive if she had only done a few simple things. Like change the whole way she lived. That it is really her fault for being on a remote road alone. Like that would be too great a temptation and would virtually ensure her murder.
I feel like asking "Have you ever been abducted and raped?" Well, I have. And every time I hear these reminders about safety, I wonder - why can't we get rapists off the streets instead of telling women to live in fear?
When a man is murdered, we don't tell men to stay inside and not subject themselves to this dangerous world!
I wonder if I can go to my run without getting into an argument. This stuff really brings out some strong passion in me. Most things I can just let roll of my shoulders, but not this.
I will go back to my prayer chair this morning and pray for a while and see if I get some divine intuition.
I could use a prayer or two. I don't care how long ago my past is, it still creeps up and slaps me in the face from time to time.