|Photo of snow from my warm window - I am not going out there!|
I just had a long chat with the sponsee I mentioned yesterday. I talked to her about choosing what she focuses on. She made some outrageous statements and I did some reality testing with her. Like "I am as poor as a person can be!" I told her that was simply not the truth and told her why. She agreed. I told her she has simply got to stop telling herself all of this awful stuff that isn't even the truth.
Early on in sobriety, somehow I learned that I could decide how I wanted to look at things. I am not saying that I am always on the sunny side, because I am not. I have to work to maintain a positive attitude - it is not my nature. But thanks to years of practice, I have learned that I CAN choose how I respond to life. Life will always have its challenges, but I can decide whether that will make me or break me. Prayer and meditation also helps with this greatly. I cannot start a day without prayer and expect that it is going to be good.
I am happy, happy, happy to be sitting in my nice warm house, looking out at the snow. I am happy that I have work that I enjoy that I can do right here at my dining room table. I am also happy that after living in this house for over ten years, I have just started using the gas fireplace in my living room, it makes me warm, cozy, and well, happy!!! I have no idea why I have only used this on rare occasions (like Christmas) before this year.
Today I am thanking God for too many blessings to count. But Number One is my sobriety. I think, with gratitude I will likely stay sober today and I hope you all do too.