Monday, February 20, 2012

Preparations

Another scene from summer
I am posting tonight, then I will go into the kitchen and pack a lunch while I watch "The Voice."  I will choose my clothing for tomorrow and set it all aside in readiness.   I hope to be in bed before 8 p.m.  Then 4 a.m. will be a reasonable time to wake up.

Today I wanted to see what I was doing 6 years ago today - and it was amazing to read it here on my blog.  My daughter was in the depths of her disease, my son was getting ready to go to Iraq (at the height of the war), and our family felt like it was being torn to shreds.  I was grateful that I had the program and my friends to see me through this time.  I am still grateful for that.  It was a hard time.

And today has its own challenges.  Very different.  My now sober daughter is very sick and had to make a middle of the night trip to the ER last night.  She has got a terrible ear infection.  She has an old friend at her apartment taking care of her.  Hearing his name makes me cringe, but I must trust God and let go.  She is sober and I believe that.  She says she absolutely was done with drugs and alcohol, and I believe that too.  I know that is my story.  I hope to God it is hers too.  These "kids" she used to hang around with have taken the course we often hear in meetings - locked up, covered up, or sobered up.  She is now past the age I was when I got sober, and I know I wasn't a "kid" then.  I was older then than I am now.  I think she and her friends are too.

Tonight I had dinner with my longest sponsee.  She is someone so dear to my heart.  It was so good to see her.  She has made tremendous progress over the last year - and it has hurt like hell.

So, I will get ready for another day.

Thanking God for another sober one today.  xoxox

6 comments:

Syd said...

Progress in those I sponsor is good. I see them and smile. I listen to them share at meetings and think that it is so good that they have grown. I feel it is a miracle to go from a despairing person to one who can laugh and enjoy life.

Mary LA said...

I hope your daughter get well soon. These blogs document so much about our sober lives, don't they?

dAAve said...

Interesting. To go back. I remember those things about your life, 6 years ago.

I have a long sponsee too. He's 6'8".

Pammie said...

So many changes. When my sober daughter mentions "certain names" I cringe too.

Lou said...

"locked up, covered up, or sobered up" That sends a chill down my spine.

ScottF said...

I love looking back to see how life has changed and hopefullyl discover where I've grown. I pray that your daughter gets wel, and I am happy to see the positive changes in your life.