Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Emergency Room

I spent yesterday afternoon and evening at a local emergency room. I will start by saying - everything is OK, thank God. My youngest granddaughter became very ill and my daughter took her to the ER. She had a high fever among other things and they thought she might have meningitis. They did a lumbar puncture (spinal tap) to test the spinal fluid, and thankfully, that was fine. Little Madeline started perking up after IV fluids, but had an adverse drug reaction to the IV antibiotic... that was scary. She went back home last night and I will call in a bit to see how she is this morning.

The one shining moment in this (I always look for a shining moment, it must be from all the "mind-numbing" years in AA), was to watch my two daughters minister to the baby. I stood back and watched as they held her while some pretty gruesome things were being done. It was a wonderful moment - to realize that I am no longer "the one." I can take a back seat to these wonderful women, my daughters. It was not only a feeling of passing the baton, but also a tremendous swelling of love and pride in my daughters. They are both good women, no matter what their disposition may be.

I also have to say that I tried to engage this person who is harrassing all of us. I thought there were two people, but it turns out he is but one very disturbed individual. It was probably a mistake to try to enter a dialog with him. I had 6 very disturbing e-mails from him this morning. If it continues, I will report it as spam. I feel bad about the hurt and pain that must be behind that kind of vitriol.

We are supposed to have record-breaking high temperatures today. I am going to endeavor to get to work early and leave early to run in the afternoon sunshine before the 5:30 meeting. I am so grateful to be alive and sober today. I usually enjoy spring, but after the winter we have just experienced, I feel like the world is coming back to life! It is wonderful!

"Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us. We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of Happy Destiny. May God bless you and keep you - until then." Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 164

15 comments:

dAAve said...

God blessed you.

Noor Azman Othman GBE said...

My prayer for Little Madeline and as dAAve said, God blessed you.

lushgurl said...

I just read that same reading on Lex's post, must be a sign for me today.
You have done a great job of teaching your daughters', I know the love and pride felt when they succeed in life. Stay true to you always! Love ya MC...HUGS

Shannon said...

I do hope your grandbaby start feeling better. I love how you saw that shinning moment with your daughters.

I am sorry to hear about this person being so nasty. I will pray for him as well.

enjoy your sunshinny day

love Shannon

BigSkymAAck said...

I am happy that Madeline is doing better. It must be a wonderful feeling to see the maturity in your Children.
FAEA

AAwoken said...

Oy!
I think I'm becoming a Jew!
THANK GOD SHE'S OK!

Meg Moran said...

You are the Mother that created those two shining examples of motherhood....

Syd said...

So glad that the baby is doing well. Take care of yourself. Ignore the hate and vitriol and enjoy your family. Your quote of the day was wonderful.

Tab said...

OH I am so glad your grand daughter is going to be ok.and the way you pictured yourself looking on to your girls as a proud Mother warmed my heart.
Thanks for sharing.

Lounge Daddy said...

Holy crap, MC!
I agree with every one else - God has blessed you.

What a great family you have.
What great vision you have. Thank God for all the years of mind-numbing AA. Hehe

I will keep praying for you and yours.

Pam said...

What can be more rewarding than seeing our grown children act like adults?
But...bless ya'lls hearts...it's always difficult when a young one is ill.
I'm so self centered that I'm wondering why these guys haven't blasted my blog???

Christine said...

How scarey but how cool for you to trust God and your daughters to handle the situation with Madeline

to find a shining moment...

Redhead Gal said...

Poor little Madeleine. That must have been very scary for all. Sending some prayers for you all.

Anonymous said...

lots of love and prayers to your whole family!!! lots of love and prayers for the disturbed individual sounds like he's in alot of fear!But especially lots and lots of love to you MC. Thanx for helping me in sobriety! Thanx for reminding me to look for the blessings even when times get rough! Snoogs!

Gwen said...

Thank God everything is OK. I can only imagine all the things you must have been feeling. But the love for your daughters and seeing them take care of things must have been one of those "FULL" moments. Love them.

Hope your Wednesday is beautiful.
Love Gwen