Sorry to be using my March 4th joke today (lame as it is) but on the 4th I was a little bit too upset to even be thinking of a pun. Today I look out my window and see green grass, tulip leaves sprouting out of the ground, and buds on the trees. I went out and took pictures of both, but liked the starkness of the aspen branches against the morning sky. There are buds all over that tree! There is life after this long, long winter!
Yesterday, after much prayer, I finally met a person for lunch and had a conversation that I needed to have for a long time, but never could muster the strength to do it. After my misery on Sunday, I got the "courage" to take the action I needed to take. Today I woke up feeling lighter and free. Thank God for this program teaching me to take action and teaching me how to admit when I am wrong and quickly make amends. Also this program taught me that when I am feeling bad there is a reason for it and I better get to the bottom of it before that feeling bad turns into taking a drink. I am so grateful that I have a sponsor who helps me with sorting this stuff out before I take action. (I know I am being a bit cryptic here, I hope not too much so.)
So today is beautiful. I am on a new running schedule and this is not a running day, and I really regret it. I wish I was out there. I will be tomorrow.
I finalized my plans for my trip to Texas yesterday. I will be in touch with some Houstonians about that!
"How many of us would presume to declare, 'Well, I'm sober and I'm happy. What more can I want or do? I'm fine the way I am.' We know thst the price of such self-satisfaction is an inevitable back-slide, punctuated at some point by a very rude awakening. We have to grow or else deterioriate. For us, the status quo can only be for today, never for tomorrow. Change we must; we cannot stand still." -- As Bill Sees It, p. 25
9 comments:
Yeah, it is a beautiful day indeed.
It taught me to take action, and admitted when I was wrong and quickly made amends.
Yeah, it is a beautiful day indeed.
Hi Mary Cristine I am enjoying your blog. I have a cussing problem, too. I have improved, but I have many backslides when I get excited or angry. Progress, progress, progress. I think sharing personal things (as they relate to drinking and living a sober life) at meetings is more honest, refreshing, and comforting than reporting on what's written in the Big Book.
YOU are beautiful MC.
I appreciate all you share.
Thank you.
And great to read you are heading to Texas!
cryptic or not, its always so good to watch your program in action
I have a girlfriend Cathy in Houston and blogger friends there to, damn I wish I could join you. Last time I was in Houston was in a July talk about hot I was dripping trying to walk at 6am there.
"Also this program taught me that when I am feeling bad there is a reason for it and I better get to the bottom of it before that feeling bad turns into taking a drink." - amen
i dont think you were being cryptic at all....
I am soooo jealous would love to come to houston with ya.
it is beautiful here to all the way up to 59 (which is waaarm here!)
"Independent of the good opinion of others" - Maslow
That's my motto. As far as sharing in meetings, I see the camps split into two. Those who advocate only sharing Experience, Strength an Hope. And the others allowing just about anything. My personal preference is for the former. I attended a conference where the speaker's topic was "Are you carrying AA's message? Or are you carrying your own?" AT the ends he warooed it up by saying, "if you are carrying you own, how many people are you killing with it?"
That was all I needed to stick with the basics from that point forward.
If you disagree - see the qote I opened with.
I do, however, grow curioser and curioser about this clown incident.
OK so here's the thing I am very happy for you (and others) who actually see signs of life in your garden...but we had a -42 degree celcius day here!!! Don't ask me what it is in farenheit just too freakin' cold!!!
It is so cool that you are willing to take action immediately, I have the willingness, but still a little chicken! I plan to do a forth step this month, hopefully this will help!
hmmm... that quote from "As Bill Sees It" is very (hehe) sobering.
I am just beginning to experience the life-long benefit of a great AA sponsor. :) What a blessing, eh?
that joke killed it, I was waiting on the drum..lol
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