Sorry to be using my March 4th joke today (lame as it is) but on the 4th I was a little bit too upset to even be thinking of a pun. Today I look out my window and see green grass, tulip leaves sprouting out of the ground, and buds on the trees. I went out and took pictures of both, but liked the starkness of the aspen branches against the morning sky. There are buds all over that tree! There is life after this long, long winter!
Yesterday, after much prayer, I finally met a person for lunch and had a conversation that I needed to have for a long time, but never could muster the strength to do it. After my misery on Sunday, I got the "courage" to take the action I needed to take. Today I woke up feeling lighter and free. Thank God for this program teaching me to take action and teaching me how to admit when I am wrong and quickly make amends. Also this program taught me that when I am feeling bad there is a reason for it and I better get to the bottom of it before that feeling bad turns into taking a drink. I am so grateful that I have a sponsor who helps me with sorting this stuff out before I take action. (I know I am being a bit cryptic here, I hope not too much so.)
So today is beautiful. I am on a new running schedule and this is not a running day, and I really regret it. I wish I was out there. I will be tomorrow.
I finalized my plans for my trip to Texas yesterday. I will be in touch with some Houstonians about that!
"How many of us would presume to declare, 'Well, I'm sober and I'm happy. What more can I want or do? I'm fine the way I am.' We know thst the price of such self-satisfaction is an inevitable back-slide, punctuated at some point by a very rude awakening. We have to grow or else deterioriate. For us, the status quo can only be for today, never for tomorrow. Change we must; we cannot stand still." -- As Bill Sees It, p. 25