Friday, March 23, 2007

Friday is a Good Day

When I was married to the father of my children, we would sing a song each Friday morning.... "today is FRI-day, and that's a GOOD day!" Bits of random memory, I am sure they will be with me for all my remaining days...

Today my little girl is supposed to go into rehab, where she will stay for 6 months. She got the phone call yesterday. Her daughters will be well cared-for, the older one with her grandfather (the ex who used to sing about Friday mornings with me), and the younger one with her father (who got out of rehab a month ago, and is doing really well.) I pray my daughter can go through with this. I will be so relieved once I don't get a teary phone call later today telling me why she didn't show up... etc. In the first 30 days of this program, they have no contact with anyone outside of the program. I am somewhat ashamed to say that her sister and I kind of look forward to no phone calls from her for an entire 30 days. Any spare prayers would be greatly appreciated for my Megan.

I have been doing research at work on alcohol and suicide. It is grim. grim, grim, grim. I have a project due on April 14, and I will be very happy when it is over. I had a dream last night about someone hanging themselves in my dining room.

Today is the due date for 4 other projects that have consumed my life for the last couple of months. Three of them involve clicking a "submit" button today. I cannot wait until that is done! Then it is party time!

I am not running today. I ran 5 miles on Wednesday evening and ended up in terrible, terrible pain. Yesterday I did some research on hip pain in runners and it scared the bejesus out of me. I went to the pool last night before the 5:30 meeting and was thrilled that I was able to swim a half mile with no pain at all. I feel much better today, and I am sure I don't have the injury I thought I had yesterday. But I am taking a couple of days off anyway. I do not want to destroy my chance of finishing my half-marathon because of overtraining.

I am a chatty cathy today, huh?

My wish for you all today? A sober day. That is the greatest miracle of all for an alcoholic. In case you think I am short-sighted, let me explain.... if you are an alcoholic and you stay sober today, you have a chance at everything worthwhile in life. If you are an alcoholic and do not stay sober today, you have a chance at nothing worthwhile.

"We perceive that only through utter defeat are we able to take our first steps toward liberation and strength. Our admissions of personal powerlessness finally turn out to be firm bedrock upon which happy and purposeful lives may be built." -- Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 21


Scott W said...

Yabba-Dabba_do! I love that firm bedrock!

Happy Friday!

kel said...

I will add your daughter to my prayers.


Syd said...

A beautiful post. I'm thinking of your daughter as she goes on her journey.

Pam said...

ooo you know I am happy about Megan! In one of the rehabs my daughter was in, they also had the no contact for 30 day rule. It was the first time in years that I was able to sleep thru the night. Knowing that they are in a safe excellent tonic for our spirits. No matter how this ends up for her, at least the whole family can get a little peace and rest....and I mean that with love. It really helps me, to scoop up women in meetings that are my daughters age, and give them good AA lovin'.

lushgurl said...

Happy Friday...Cathy LOL
I too am glad that you will have some peace that your daughter is in a safe place tonight. May God give her the strength she needs to stick with it for the 6 months!

I hope the rest of your day is peaceful and you click that submit button. Thanks for being YOU! MC
love ya lots and HUGS

vicariousrising said...

I hope your daughter takes full advantage of her rehab. I was only there for 38 days, but that break from the real world was much needed for me, especially since I knew my little boy was well cared for. Taking the time to focus on me and recovery was so crucial, and I wish all the best for your daughter Megan in her own journey.


Shannon said...

I love it you are so chatty :)
it is not good to self diagnos via internet. I do hope your hip pain subsides. Go to your dr if it doesnt.
Your Megan is in my prayers, and your wonderful son and daughter.
Have a great Friday- me and my hubby sing the Friday son too.. :)

Anonymous said...

hmmm. prayers for your daughter.
one of the things that set me on my journey was another addict talking about their recovery really beginning with a 30 day stay in rehab.

So prayers! :)
2007 will be a great year for many of us, me thinks

"...research at work on alcohol and suicide. It is grim. grim, grim, grim."

shudder. I saw a story at Drudge Report this morning about a man who hanged himself live to the watching world via webcam.
His ex-wife mentioned in vague terms that he had problem and hadn't fully recovered.
I couldn't help but think ...addiction.

Awful awful stuff.

lash505 said...

does the chain really ever break? I feel for you with your daughter. I hope I never go through it, because it scares me. How is your son?