Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I am going to work - where it will take everything I have not to point out that one of my co-workers has blown off one of her responsibilities and gone on vacation. I will sit in the meeting where she is on the agenda to present something and act surprised I guess when we all realize she isn't there and hasn't made provisions for this. We are developing a very poor relationship, she has said some atrocious things to me in the last week. This is where I must be very very careful - I know I am right. God save me from being right. Prayer, prayer, prayer. That is my only hope. Because left to my own devices, I would be doing something very different.
And then leaving at noon for a funeral. I hope I can keep my emotions from boiling over. I have identified already that I may react very badly to this loss. He was a good man, we were friends at one time. But I haven't talked to him for a long time. And I could easily let this take me down the "I am old, all the old things are gone, and my best days are over" road.
Prayer, prayer, prayer. That is my only hope. Left to my own devices, I would be having a little bit of whisky in my coffee this morning to "fortify" me and make the day more "bearable." HA! The things we tell ourselves!
With God's help I will stay sober today, and hope you all do too.