Thursday, November 03, 2011


This morning I left a bunch of inappropriate comments on blogs.  I would look at them and think "this has nothing to do with the post - why am I writing this?"  And then I would post it anyway.  If you got one of them, I apologize.  But one thing I love about having a track record is that you guys know this is an exception and not a rule (I hope) and you will forgive me.

These clocks need to be turned back!  Who was the genius who decided we should have DST for eight months of the year?  Probably someone who didn't need to function early in the morning while it is still dark.

I just wrote three paragraphs about work and erased them.  I have a feeling that someone from work is reading my blog.  I don't even know who, but I just have a feeling.  I have been successful over the years at leaving work pretty much out of my blog, I guess I better continue to do so.  But I think I am going to have some good news on this front within the next month.  I start to get anxious about this, but I have to remind myself that I am living in God's will and that is precisely what will happen - His will, not mine.

When I was drinking and then in early sobriety, I craved the stability I saw others had.  I wanted to work at the same place for a whole career.  I wanted to live in the same house all my life.  Etc.  But I have now had this kind of "stability" for seventeen years in my career, and ten years in my house.  I am realizing this is simply not my style or nature.  I am itching to change things.  I cannot sell my house because of the housing market - well, I COULD sell it and not lose money, but it wouldn't be a particularly SMART thing to do.  And I have felt stuck in my job for several years now.  I am ready to change that.  A month or so ago, I would have told you how hopeless this was.

And now, it looks like God has moved in my life - the way he always has.  In his time, not mine.

I am grateful, grateful, grateful.  And I think I will stay sober today - I hope you do too.


Syd said...

Your comment to me was good. I appreciate what you write. Thanks for being here.
I understand how jobs can get stale. I thought that I would work at my job forever. I couldn't foresee leaving. But after so many years at it, I was ready to get out. I could not take the BS anymore--doing monthly reports, time sheets, performance reviews was not what I went to graduate school to do.

Grace-WorkinProgress said...

I had an unstable childhood and spent most my life trying to have what I thought was stable.

It drained the life out of me and now I am happy to be free of it. Sure I get scared sometimes because with freedom comes uncertainty. But it is worth it.

dAAve said...

Hi Mary.

Lou said...

yes, I'm glad to have a track record too

Pammie said...

Girl, I am so with you on seeking stability then finding something amiss about it.

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