Thursday, November 24, 2011
At 10:00 my daughter and I went to a movie. There were maybe 10 people inside the theater, and that was nice.
This morning my sober daughter texted a photo of my old boyfriend with his arm around her. They were on an annual motorcycle trip to bring cigarettes, gloves, hats, blankets, clothes to the homeless. My old beau started that tradition many years ago. My daughter has gone along since she has been sober. It was so heartwarming to see Ed with his big arm around my daughter. I texted back my love.
I have had so many phone calls and texts to wish me a Happy Thanksgiving. And some of them thanking me for my friendship. It is wonderful to know that I am a part of something larger - whether my family or AA. The feeling of belonging is so important to a human being.
My son (in Afghanistan) called while I was writing this. He has been sick and sounds not good. He didn't get to eat turkey today because the line was too long. But one of his friends grilled steaks later and he got one of those. It was hard to control my voice because I was about to burst into tears. Somehow I got off the phone without doing so. He doesn't need a weepy mama.
I will go to work for a few hours tomorrow in spite of the fact that I had scheduled it off. I have too much to do and I can't afford the whole day off. There will be very few people in my area of the hospital and I think I will be able to get my work done quickly. Good.
Sobriety has been so very good to me. In the last day or so I have been made more aware that I am a part of something so beautiful - the fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous.
"There you will find release from care, boredom, and worry. Your imagination will be fired. Life will mean something at last. The most satisfactory years of your existence lie ahead. thus we find the fellowship, and so will you." Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 152