Wednesday, December 07, 2011
I am finding my mornings increasingly unmanageable. I am "sleeping in" until after 5 a.m., and that does not leave enough time for blogging and getting a workout and getting to a meeting. This morning I intended to go swimming, but time has run out as I have sat at this computer, so I will try to get to the pool after work. Knowing that by the time I am done working for the day I don't want to do anything.
Last night I searched the local AA central office website for a meeting nearby. I have gotten into such a habit of going at 6:30 a.m., I don't even know what meetings meet here at night. Imagine my surprise when I saw a meeting I used to go to years ago, not even a mile away. I thought they stopped meeting! I was wrong, they only stopped meeting on Thursday, not Tuesday. I drove for one minute and got to the meeting. And frankly, I thought the meeting was terrible. The woman who chaired the meeting talked eight times! Eight! There was a new woman there who probably talked eight times as well. She can be excused for that, but she will have a rude awakening if she goes to another meeting and finds that behavior is considered unacceptable in other places.
So, I will probably keep going to that meeting. It is not my "cup of tea" but that is OK. It is good to switch things up every now and then.
I went to the dentist yesterday afternoon and got some really upsetting news. The hygienist really made me feel good when she praised my clean teeth and healthy gums. Then the dentist came in and told me about a terrible cavity that will need a root canal and a crown - if I'm lucky. Otherwise I will need an extraction and a bridge. They gave me a little bag with a toothbrush and toothpaste and ushered me into the little "financial arrangements" room. Well, I am looking at $1,100 for best case scenario, and $3,600 for worst case scenario. Oh, and this is AFTER the insurance pays their share. You know, I no longer have money hanging out so I don't exactly know how I am going to do this. I told them I had to go away and figure this out . And it is one of my front teeth! It is not an option to lose this tooth. Well, I guess it is an option, but not a good one.
There is a woman I sponsor who calls me with tragedies every day. I always tell her that God will see her through. I have to explain sometimes though that God isn't going to see that we have tons of money and no problems. But God sees us through in that he will give us the grace to get through what we need to get through. And all kinds of wonderful things happen when you place your trust in him.
I will trust him again today. Because he has never let me down.