I have a big date tonight - going to a trendy restaurant downtown. I have it in my mind that since it is cold and snowy, I need a pair of jeggings to go with my super cool boots - but I am fighting the urge to go out and buy such an age-inappropriate thing to wear. We'll see how I do with impulse-control today.
I had intended to be at the hardware store at their opening this morning to buy some more garland for my Christmas tree and a tree skirt. I got a 20% coupon in the mail the other day. I know that place gets mobbed when they have a coupon - and I usually arrive wondering what the big deal is. I have finally gotten to the place where I am looking at coupons very carefully and making decisions based on discounts. I did fight the urge to buy a beautiful Balsam Hill tree when they went on sale for Black Friday.... 40% wasn't enough of a discount in that case. Because the amount of money I "saved" doesn't make up for the amount of money I wasted on something I never needed.
What's this got to do with anything? Only everything. Although I have been sober for over 27 years, I am still an infant in learning how to live like a responsible adult. It just is not in my nature. It is my heart's desire though, so by the Grace of God, I get better every day.
By God's Grace, I pray to stay sober all day today and I hope you do too.