Monday, December 12, 2011

December 12

It's Monday - time to get back to work.  I should also be working out this morning, but this foot hurts so bad that even the thought of swimming doesn't appeal.  Oh dear, this could be disastrous.

Honestly, I have been sitting here for 10 minutes staring at this screen.  I don't know that this has ever happened to me before.  I have started writing a couple of things that are just simply complaining.  I don't want to complain.  So - here's what's good:

I got a birthday card from my brother - he said he was proud of me - and I believe him.  If you knew our history, you would know what a miracle this is.

Those flowers are sitting on my dining room table, someone cared enough about me to bring them to me.

You will note that the lace tablecloth has been usurped for the month of December by this velvet table runner - it was a gift last year from my favorite psychiatrist.  I <3 him.

It is a delightful thing to be a Broncos fan right now.  I <3 Tim Tebow.

I have a job - I have taken cuts in pay for the last three years and will take another in July - but I still have a job.

There are no such things as debtors prisons in the United States of America.  (I can still pay my bills, but the margin is getting slimmer every day and I am starting to worry.)

My sponsor is a wonderful woman and I got to talk with her last night.  She always tells me she loves me and thanks me for sharing my life with her.  I <3 her.

I had phone calls and text messages from women I sponsor over the weekend.  They may drive me to distraction at times, but I <3 them.

My kids are all having challenges of different sorts right now.  But none of them are legal problems.  None of them are drug or alcohol related problems.  They are just life problems.  I <3 my kids (and grandkids).

My 60th birthday is this week.  It is happy and sad.  I realized that I will qualify for "senior" rate at the movies and that can never be a bad thing.  But it is sad to know that so much of my life is gone.  I had planned to run 6 miles to celebrate my birthday - just as I ran 3 to celebrate my 30th... but my foot will barely allow me to walk - slowly.  I am still grateful that I am a person who takes no medications for blood pressure, high cholesterol, etc.

I am grateful most of all that God has graced me with another day of sobriety.  Because no matter what else is going on, my sobriety is the most important thing.  Because no matter what else is good in my life, it all turns to crap if I pick up a drink.  And no matter what else is bad/scary about my life, I know it will be OK if I just trust in God and do the next right thing (thank God it is my left foot that is hurting).

So, I think I will stay sober again today, and my hope is that you do too.  xoxox


Lou said...

I relate to the birthday. It's bittersweet. Having a grateful attitude keeps it in perspective however. I'm glad for the thankfulness in your life, in my life, everyone around me. So much abundance, sometimes it makes me teary.

thenoiseandhaste said...

I love your posts; they are always so filled with gratitude. And those flowers are gorgeous!

Elizabeth said...

I love Tim Tebow too!

Sorry your foot is hurting :-(

dAAve said...

One foot in front of the other (painful) one.
That's my Mary!

Syd said...

Well, I'm with you on getting older. Just the other day I was thinking that I only have about 20 good years left to sail and do a lot of active things before I get too old to do them. But who really knows how long we have. I am making the most of this day and not worrying about what might or might not happen in the future.
Nice flowers!

Annette said...

What great perspective you just gave to me. I can relate to your post about jobs and money. I haven't raised my rates in more than 5 years. D has not gotten a raise in 3. But milk is 3.99 a gallon and peanut butter for a big container was just 10.99!

Oh well, so we cut back. For today our needs are met and the bills are paid....most of them at least. :o)

I love your sunny table! So cheerful. And that you would even consider *running* 6 miles at 60 says a lot of your health and your state of mind.
Bless you my dear.

atomic momma said...

I <3 YOU!!!

You are probably feeling sort of a post blues letdown from the letdown of all the excitement of your birthday and the 10,000th day of sobriety but you are in an incredible place in life. 60 is the new 40!!!!

Mary LA said...

Well I <3 you. Those lime and cream flowers on the red velvet runner look beautiful. I hope your foot heals and that you have a great birthday.

Pammie said...

You are the ONLY reason that I am not afraid of 60.