Friday, December 09, 2011
On this, my 9,999th day of sobriety, I had intended to go to a spinning class - but I just couldn't move myself fast enough to get there by 6 a.m. So, I have read blogs instead. My computer (MacBook) is fast enough today which leads me to believe that it is my internet connection that needs some speed. It seems I need to replace the modem every year or so. Sad, because it costs money. And I am having a bit of a shortage of that right now.
Last night I went to church and a verse I have heard all my life just leapt out and entered my heart. And I cried (of course). It was "Do not be afraid, Mary" spoken by the angel Gabriel. Now, I know that was spoken to a young woman in Israel over two thousand years ago, but yesterday it felt like it was spoken just to me.
There really is a lot to be afraid about right now. But there is also an awful lot to be grateful for. And I know that when I trust God and just do the footwork, things tend to be OK. Maybe not exactly the way I want them, but OK.
I'm getting my hair cut and colored tonight. And when I can relax and not think about the million things I have to get done, I really enjoy sitting around the salon. I have had the same hairstylist for the last 8 or 9 years, so we "know" each other. I love to read trashy magazines (People, etc.) that I refuse to buy. I love the female camaraderie. Even though I have a huge weekend ahead where I have a ridiculous number of things to get done, I will make every effort to enjoy my little time-out at the salon.
It's all in how I want to look at things. I think I will try to stay on the happy side today. I may not be able to, but I will make the effort.
And I will thank God that I am sober for another day.