Syd, do you see that starfish on the mantle in the middle? You sent me that several years ago.
So, it is another morning, with me sitting here in my pajamas, writing... when I need to get on the treadmill for a few miles and get ready for work. I will post tonight - I can't continue to do this morning ritual even though I do love it.
I have hinted at this, but didn't want to write it down. It is looking very much like I am about to change jobs. I have been driving to the same building every M-F for over 17 years. I have had the same job within that building for over 10 years. I have had the same office in that building for 9 years. By Friday afternoon last week I had decided I didn't really want to change jobs. But I have a great opportunity and I simply must give up this "comfort," which in retrospect will probably not seem to be a comfort at all. I need a change. I need a challenge. I also need more money.
There are still details to work out about this job. I will meet with the person doing the hiring on Friday of this week. She offered me the job last Friday. I am delighted - especially since this is a new job and they approached me about it. It is nice to know that I am seen as someone competent to take on a new challenge. But the idea of me being downtown in an office building for an 8-5 shift five days a week is so terrifying!
I have walked through terrifying before. I know it is OK. I remember a meeting I went to in Glenwood Springs in 1986 - someone said that once you take the third step - and really mean it - your life is never your own again. And that is a good thing.
So I will step out in faith again today. Grateful to be sober. Grateful for the grace of God.