Thursday, December 08, 2011
My computer or internet connection has slowed down to the point that I cannot possibly visit all of your blogs today and still get to work on time. Some of you have so many doo-dads on your blogs that it takes all day to load.
Last night I was on the phone all evening. I heard from so many people! Including Ed, my old boyfriend. He and my daughter attend the same meetings these days and hang in the same social circles. He raved about how great she is doing. I was happy to hear that, but I said "she is going a little bit crazy and I am really worried about her." He laughed and said "Crazy? The apple doesn't fall far from the tree! Ha! I remember you when you were that age!"
I don't know if there is anything so comforting as talking with someone who has known you for half of your life. All of my sobriety I have known this man. God Bless Him.
Later I heard from another friend I have known since I got sober. She remembered that I have a birthday coming up. Bless her heart, she did not know how old I am. So, I got to tell her!
You cannot believe how I am walking around telling everyone - I am going to be 60 years old next week! I did the same thing when I was 30. I never thought I would be excited about 60, but I am. It doesn't hurt that people tell me I look like I am in my early 40s. Good. In fact, someone at church last week thought my granddaughter was my daughter! Oh, that was nice! Another friend tells me I wouldn't be so happy to be this age if I looked it. OK. That's fine.
I am grateful to have lived so long. I am grateful to have been sober for 9,998 days of my life. I was delighted when I saw my first gray hair - that was a long time ago - and I don't even know what my natural hair color is anymore.
Sobriety has been very very good to me. I am grateful for God's mercy instead of his justice. His justice would have me dead, in prison, locked in a psych ward, or sitting as a lonely old lady. His mercy has given me sobriety and a life I never could have imagined!
Staying sober is good. Let's all do it today, OK?