Saddy Morning

I'm going out in a minute to meet my running club.  My training plan says I am doing 5 miles today.  After two years of training for marathons, it is hard to get excited about 5 miles.  But it is good.  I registered for a June half marathon that sounds like a lot of fun.  It starts at a ski area at 10,000 ft. elevation, and descends to a little mountain town at 8,500 ft.  If I train well, I may be able to get a PR.   This race is two weeks after my olympic distance triathlon.  Now, THAT, I am nervous about.

Yesterday I went to a meeting at my old workplace.  It was nice to visit with some friends after the meeting.  But the oddest thing is that as I drove up the road to the hospital, as I had for over 17 years, there was no joy that filled my heart.  There was no excitement.  There was just a sort of sick feeling.   The good things there, for me, are in the past.  I have wonderful memories of when the hospital was still large, I had many friends there, and seemed to have a good career ahead of me.  In the last 5 years, all that changed.  I thank God I was able to leave - because it was difficult.

I think my blog has turned into a bit of a bore - with me perseverating on change.  Oh, and how tired I am.  But the change in my life is massive.  It is not only my workplace and how that has affected my schedule and sleep routine, but I also am no longer able to get to the AA meeting I picked up during the week.  Mind you, I didn't like and don't much miss it... but I am still figuring out my meeting schedule too.  It's weird to be 60 years old, 27 years sober, and have everything be new again.  But it is good.

Gotta go.  I hope you all have a wonderful, sober day - and I hope I do too.  By the grace of God, I will likely stay sober.  xoxoxo, MC