Thursday, March 02, 2006

I feel like I am a hundred years old...

Yesterday my daughters celebrated their 27th birthday. Or should I say, one of them celebrated and it would be a matter of your perspective as to which one. One of my twin daughters is a college graduate with a good job (in the same building as me, which is wonderful), the other has decided to go back to her old ways with crystal meth. This is my worst nightmare.

The whole family has been through this before with her. She had been clean for about 6 years. Now she isn't.

This morning I am old and I am tired.


Update: I just got an e-mail from my friend who said this "She is a good person, she will get sane again. That is not a platitude, its just that what ever is bedevilling her, she always overcomes it in the end." Somehow, since this friend has known me and my kids for over 21 years, it really means something to me.

14 comments:

Trudging said...

It is hard to "let go and let God" when your kids are the one involved.

Mary Christine said...

Yep, it sure is. I can KNOW what to do and what to think, but right now I am not there. One thing I can do though is something I learned in aa and alanon - just do the next right thing. Which right now is to get to work...

Scott W said...

mmmmmmm cake!

Keep close contact with your Higher Power, at times like this it is easy to let crazy thinking take over. Use the phone too.

NMAMFQLMSH said...

Cake.......chocolate cake.......mmmmmmmmmmm. Yummy!
I see you and cake too,
JJ

dAAve said...

Tough. Really tough.

But the cake AND your hand makes for a very decent hAAlf nAAked thrusdAAy picture.

Alexis said...

I'll keep you all in my prayers.... what a challenging time. a head full of AA and a belly full of booze, or meth, is a bad mix. after my period (3.5 years) of sobriety, relapsing was NOT fun and THANK GOD I knew where the solution was. I pray your little girl does too.

Shannon said...

sending you a hug !!! and you are not old... but you may feeeel old... :)

Tracie said...

My youngest child often has the same effect on me (make me feel old and tired). All you can do is all you can do, as I'm oft reminded. God bless you and yours.

AAwoken said...

Dutifuly added to prayers. You are an amzing person. God bless.

Mary Christine said...

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. You guys really have brightened my day today.

psychbaby said...

My daughter was just 27 also!

Hang tight with your daughter... it must be so difficult to let go.

(((Mary Christine)))

Rex said...

I am struggling with this issue too. It's so hard to let them go to walk their own path in life....lots are with you

kel said...

I stumbled upon your blog while reading one of my favorite blogs, I think there must have been a link... I read it in its entirety (sp?). I started blogging a bit myself a few months ago as a form of self therapy, but dont keep up on it as often as I should, I tent to get lost reading others blogs instead. I am going through hell with my 16 year old son and feel as though I am the only parent in my neighborhood who isnt blind and is trying to take care of business. Tonight, I will be attending my first Families Anonymous meeting. I am frightened and excited. Just wanted to say hello and I will add you and your daughter to my prayers.

lash505 said...

Either I am losing my eye sight or you shrunk your font. yikes... I agree use the phone it really helps, blogging only is just issolating.