I went to a disturbing meeting this morning. But then I find a lot of AA meetings disturbing. It is always amazing to me how a few personalities can change the nature of a meeting. I know we like to go around saying "I don't have the power to do this or that..." But I don't buy it. I think one person has a lot of ability to hurt others, or comfort others, or make a meeting uncomfortable, or even unbearable. We all have the ability to make a huge difference in our environments, but I guess some of us don't know that.
I miss the people who used to go to that meeting. They would talk about recovery from alcoholism. Not how they were leaving their wives because she gained some weight, or how you were going to confront the person who ratted you out to the police and "caused" you to lose your job. Not how you called your son a filthy name because he failed to live up to your expectations. Etcetera, etcetera. When I shared, I tried to mention things like steps and finding a God of your understanding, but I am not sure that was a welcome message this morning.
After the meeting I got to go to breakfast with a group of women from the group. That was nice.
And then spent the day at home (except for a little 5 mile run), gratefully because I needed the down time desperately.
Now I shall go watch the Broncos game and knit for a tiny granddaughter who is not yet born.
Thanks be to God.