Then, as I go through my photo library, I usually chose to go through the past year of photos, which will sometimes remind me of what I was doing a year ago this time. This photo reminds me that a year ago today I was doing my last triathlon. I decided not to do it this year - for the first time in six years I am missing it - because I wanted to focus all my energy on marathon training. After the triathlon last year, I headed out to visit my sponsor on the western slope. Yesterday I booked my trip on the Amtrak to visit my sponsor - the day after a half-marathon later this month. I am very excited about both of these events. After the drive to San Antonio and then Corpus Christi I am not anxious to take another road trip, but a train trip sounds great!
One of the things I love about marathon training is that it forces a person of my age to rest. Rest is something I am usually not good at scheduling. Yesterday I knew I would be tired, so I planned on going to an early meeting, and to meet a dear friend for breakfast - these were both wonderful activities - both very restorative to my soul. Then I came home and slept and watched the Sunday morning news shows on DVR and my netflix movie and knitted and talked on the phone and I even ordered a spaghetti dinner to be delivered from the neighborhood Italian restaurant! My punitive nature would like to chastise me for being "lazy," but then I remember that there is even a commandment that says I am not supposed to do anything on Sunday. It is a very good thing.
I almost feel ready to face the day at work today. Regardless of how I feel, I will just march in there and put a smile on my face and give it my very best effort. Thank God they taught me to "fake it till you make it" when I was new in sobriety. People may argue with the validity of that advice, but it has served me well over the years. I don't have to *feel* like smiling or working or giving it my best shot today - I just have to do it. My feelings usually follow my action and I have seldom found that I get a "good" feeling first and then follow up with action. If I waited until I felt good to do good, it just would never happen.
So, I think I will stay sober today, and I hope you all join me, OK?