Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Trauma Mechanisms

Yesterday I spent an hour or so with our facility trainer going over the annual training that will start today for most of the hospital staff.  She wanted to show me a training she had developed for treatment planning.  It focused on looking at why the behavior we want to change actually works or worked at one time for the patient.  These behaviors don't come out of nowhere.   It's how humans adapt.

Last night I met the man I have been dating.  I had intended to have a serious talk with him.  When I walked up to the restaurant and saw him sitting inside - my heart sort of melted when I saw his face lit up when he saw me.  That was disarming.  And then when we started talking and he had an absolutely horrible day - I thought this is not the day to pile on him.  We walked to our cars after dinner and talked for a while.  I actually shed a tear and talked to him in a real way instead of being a tough girl the way I had intended.  A lifetime of well-crafted behavior to adapt... just given up?  I guess so.

He will be traveling for most of the next couple of months, so we will have a natural break.  That is good.

Work is so busy it is insane - but good.  I ran all day yesterday.  In 3 inch heels.  Which I have found are more comfortable on my injured feet than my little orthopedic shoes.  You know, I can't stand being an old sedate lady in orthopedic shoes.  I am happy when I am running around in 3" heels - even if it hurts!  It hurts less than the alternative.

I will trust God that I am where I am supposed to be today.  I don't know where I am going, but I will step there in faith (and in heels).

"This above all:  to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, Thou canst not then be false to any man."  W. Shakespeare


dAAve said...

Probably a good thing to not pile on his day any further. The break should be good, but if there's problems, they will be on your mind for months?

3" heels huh?
Nope. I'm sticking with my tennis shoes.

Syd said...

I am glad that you had dinner and were able to part for a while with compassion.
I honestly don't know how women walk in high heels. They can't be good for the feet, right?
Have a good day, MC.

Lou said...

I cannot walk in heels and think at the same time.

I'm happy about the dinner outcome.

Lynda Halliger-Otvos said...

I cannot even stand in heels and I am a girl most of the time !~!

MC, your ability to *not* have that talk serves you well in many of life’s circumstances. good job.