Saturday, November 04, 2006

I'm in love with Alcoholics Anonymous

It is a beautiful November Saturday Morning. I just got done running 6.2 miles - yes a real 10 kilometers - at a trail around a nearby lake. It was awesome. When I got done, I broke down in tears. Luckily no one was around to see me sobbing. I was thanking God from the depths of my soul for the life I have today. Thanks to the Grace of a Loving God, I have been given Grace and Perfect Mercy, and not justice. If I got what I deserved, it would not be pretty.

I went to a meeting last night and another this morning. I said the same thing in both of them. I am so grateful for Alcoholics Anonymous. Last night an old friend from school called me to tell me about his really huge new job. He talked to me about a job in Northern California. I could not believe what came out of my mouth - I said I am not interested in a high power job right now.

All I want right now is to be a member of Alcoholics Anonymous, going to tons of meetings and doing what I am doing. I want to be around the people I love - in AA and my family. I want to be a member of my church. I want to continue to be able to run 5 times a week. I don't want to go off to a strange land for a high powered job with all the pressure that goes along with that.

So, although I have some pretty upsetting life circumstances right now, I feel freaking fantastic because these challenges have forced me to do what I am supposed to be doing. I am so grateful to be sober and to have a wonderful way of life and a wonderful fellowship to be part of.

"Our entire AA program rests upon the principle of mutual trust. We trust God, we trust AA, and we trust each other." -- As Bill Sees It, p. 310

8 comments:

Tab said...

Powerful post MC.
Thank you for sharing.

Carly said...

Thank you, MC.

Scott said...

I love the peace that comes from doing what you know you're supposed to be doing...

and those special warm loving God moments, liek you had after your run this morning, those are better than any high power job.. unless of course high power jobs amke you feel like you just ran 10K... :-)

good for you MC! great post!

lash505 said...

amen to that, I needed to hear.

dAAve said...

"these challenges have forced me to do what I am supposed to be doing."

I love the way you put that.

Scott W said...

Ahhh. Wanting what we have and having what we want. What can be better than that? Besides, California isn't what it's cracked up to be.

Gwen said...

Wow~ I can feel that in the depths of my heart. That gratitude. I know EXACTLY how you feel. Thanks MC~

*MUAH*

Christine said...

wouldn't it be grand to not have to be employed but have lots and lots of time to attend meetings and work with others? Oh, and I'd love time to do my little hobbies and more time to walk and bike and and and

Didja see the "giving thanks" on my blog? Others suggested I let you know about it--its a small way to support your son and those like him