Tuesday, October 25, 2011
A Golden Morning
I love the changing seasons, all of them.
Has anyone ever gone to facebook and been so inspired by all the lovely messages there that their day is changed? I have so many friends who post little inspirational things all day long, some with pictures of a blonde, blue-eyed Jesus. And this nice Jesus is saying all kinds of sweet things that could never be reconciled with what we know he actually said.
When I was fairly new in sobriety, "affirmations" were all the rage. I think Stuart Smalley did them the very best. The looking in the mirror and saying "I love you." Etc.
I couldn't bear it then, I can't bear it now. If I want to have self-esteem, I need to be esteemable. I can do that with action, not make-believe.
There are several women who are my "friends" on facebook who are not sober, they are struggling and resisting anything that makes sense, like going to meetings, getting a sponsor, working the steps. But they sure do all the sweet little inspirational messages all day long. I want to comment "How's that working out for you?" But I don't. Every now and then I have restraint of keyboard. Every now and then.
I am now going to be late for work because I have been screwing around with this post.
I think it would be safe to say that although I am enjoying the golden windows, I am a bit cranky today. I will ask God to help me with that. I know he will.
And I will give it my best shot to stay sober today and I hope you will too.