Saturday, October 08, 2011
After the meeting, Dr. ______, my boss, and someone else had a meeting to discuss WTF occurred. Two of us worrying if we will keep our jobs.
I tend to be a careful person. One of my first bosses told me I had to get over my fear of making mistakes. He said I could never make a mistake if I never did anything, but I would never do anything. And if I did things, I would make mistakes.
If you have grown up in a home where a mistake (perceived or real) will get you knocked around, it is hard to learn that perfectly good people make mistakes and the world does not end. I feel like I have spent a large part of my life learning that.
But in this "zero tolerance" world, mistakes are absolutely not tolerated. There is no room for ambiguity, extenuating circumstances, or understanding.
I am on vacation now for a week and a half. By the time I get back, this will be blown over... or not. Whatever.
I have lived through worse, and it will be OK.
At least I didn't cry about it.
God has seen me through many things that were so terrifying it makes me pale to even remember. This is nothing in comparison!
I think I will stay sober today, and I hope you do too. (I am going out with my running group this morning in the 40º rain, eeeek! wish me luck.)