Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Wednesday Morning

I am going to the 6:30 meeting this morning because my friend B. is celebrating his birthday today. 22 years of continuous sobriety. I am grateful for friends such as this.

Our friend Banana Girl is celebrating 2 years of sobriety today, go over and wish her a happy birthday!

What a great life we are given. We get to live in freedom, we get to earn our own trust and the trust of others. I think maybe one of the worst things about active alcoholism is not knowing with certainty what we would do. I would wake up in the morning and just thank God I hadn't killed anyone. It was the only thing I could think of that was worse than what I HAD done, or what I speculated I MIGHT have done.

I am still thinking about my former boyfriend, now sitting in jail. More than a couple of my friends called me yesterday to see if I was OK. He is in jail for "stalking" a woman, violating a restraining order. My friends wanted to make sure that woman wasn't me. No, it wasn't me. Thank God. But my heart breaks for this man and his family.

"we find that bit by bit we can discard the old life - the one that did not work - for a new life that can and does work under any conditions whatever." -- As Bill Sees It, p. 8


Scott W said...

I feel for your friend, and all the others that are suffering. It seems to be so rampant, this out of control thing. It makes me sad but grateful to have found this program. And grateful for friends like you.

dAAve said...

I've always said that if you don't want to be stalked, don't eat celery.
Thanks for the heads up regarding Banana Girl.

Trudging said...

What is it about old boyfriends? I am glad that it wasn't you.

Pam said...

ooo how I hated the speculating about what I might have done the night before. So glad those days are over.