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My new job is a challenge on many fronts. First, because of the hours. Second, because of the grueling boringness and incredible number of hard deadlines. Third, the work is not even what I am good at. Fourth, and maybe the most bothersome thing, is that I am working in a department with four other people - ranging in age from 28 to 33. This is my first ever age crisis. I am older than their parents!
The thing I find so bothersome about this is that I have noticed that my communication is full of references that mean nothing to them. One day I said something and my boss gave me a blank look and said "I don't understand the reference." Another time I told a co-worker that I don't like the appearance of a report because to me it looks like "green bar," none of them even know what "green bar" is. Why would they? While I was getting reports on green bar, they were in pre-school. Please understand, I don't want to be young - I just want to be able to communicate with my co-workers.
Here is what I need to focus on: * I have a job. *Some parts of it are very good. *I love my boss, and she likes me. *I have been assured that it will evolve and not be so grueling and boring. *I love where I am in the organization - I think I can truly affect how we do things and deliver services to "needy" people.
I just need to focus on the positive. And move forward.
And mostly ask God to show me how I can be helpful.
"My Creator, I am now willing that you should have all of me, good and bad. I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows. Grant me strength, as I go out from here, to do your bidding. Amen." -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 76