Wednesday, April 25, 2012
When Daddy's Home...
When I saw the tenderness between them, my heart melted. When he called her "Angel," my heart nearly burst. That is what I always called my kids. When I saw the joy in that household, I thought this is all I need. I honestly don't know where my son learned to be so sweet to a little girl, but he did learn it, learn it well, and I am so pleased. I am so glad this little girl will have the occasional opportunity to run around in a diaper, sparkly boots, and a cowboy hat. ( I would have NEVER let my kids do that - they had to look neat at all times - probably to cover up their mother's chaos and insecurity.)
I was on the phone for much too long last night. The world is buzzing about our friend who has gotten drunk. I absolutely hate that this beautiful young woman who seemed to be so safely sober (as if!) has suffered such a fate. But I also believe what Bill W. said in As Bill Sees It - "There is no waste in God's economy." I believe this tragedy is a big wake-up call to a lot of people who probably needed a wake-up call and reality check.
Yesterday was actually a good day at work. The bosses were gone, and my co-workers and I were talking and laughing. None of us are used to working in cubicles, so we normally sit quietly and work. I guess we all felt free to open our mouths yesterday. I have prayed for God's grace to allow me to like these women, and I believe he has answered my prayers.
Today at 5:00 starts my two hellish weeks at work. Every month, there are two weeks of unrelenting work and deadlines, followed by two weeks of catching up on all the other stuff you couldn't even look at during the pressure weeks. This has been an exercise in humility for me. I don't much like exercises in humility. But the rewards are always worth it.
I will pray to keep my thoughts on others today. Because if I think about myself for more than 2 minutes, it turns into something pathological. But God never lets me down, if I just seek him.