Saturday, December 31, 2005

Are you done?

I know it is hard to give up all of the good times. The vomiting, the blackouts, the waking up finding you have wet the bed, the mornings finding that everyone is angry with you and you haven't any idea of why, the sleeping with people you shouldn't, the "forgetting" to come home, and so many more things that make up the constellation of "good times" for an alcoholic.

I have always said that it would be worth it if all I got out of sobriety was never waking up with that awful awful thought: What the hell did I do last night - and who knows? I have not woken up that way once since I have been sober.

You say "yes, I am willing. But am I to be consigned to a life where I shall be stupid, boring and glum, like some righteous people I see? I know I must get along wihtout liquor, but how can I? Have you a sufficient substitute?"

Yes, there is a substitute and it is vastly more than that. It is a fellowship in Alcoholics Anonymous. There you will find release from care, boredom and worry. Your imagination will be fired. Life will mean something at last. The most saisfactory years of your existence lie ahead. Thus we find the fellowship, and so will you.

Alcoholics Anonymous, pg. 152


May 2006 be a sober year for who wish for sobriety.

4 comments:

dAAve said...

Whatever it takes, dear.
Whatever it takes.

HNY!

Mary Christine said...

Oh, my former boyfriend called me last night. Drunk. Drunk. Drunk. I hate it. I thought it was early enough in the evening to answer the phone. HA! I can't imagine how you would hang on to that misery year after year after year. I miss him. Waaaah.

Anonymous said...

Happy New Year's Eve!

Tennessee Santa said...

Mary Happy New Years

I just got caught up on your blog. My 45 days in San Diego seemed to go on forver. The hours seemed terribly long this year. I thought I was through vomiting when I sobered up, but the last 2 Christmas Season's with all the little ones on my lap I managed to get their bugs. I was up puking last night. Thank God it wasn't because of drinking.
So Happy New Years to you and yours.