Monday, September 24, 2007

Monday AM

My son has already left for the golf course, so I can run around my house in various stages of dress/undress as I get ready for work this morning. I have something to do this morning that really terrifies me - so having an extra sense of comfort as I dress will help somewhat. I did not buy a blouse or a suit or a pair of shoes for this event. I usually buy a new suit when I feel a need for a boost in confidence. But I have a bunch of suits already - I don't need another one. I don't even LIKE wearing suits for God's sake! I looked for blouses, but I decided I already have a closet full of blouses and sweaters. I am going to wear a favorite pink silk sweater that I love and that will not be too hot.

I have gotten all "prayed-up" this morning. I know that I will be OK no matter what. I know that no matter what, this big deal will be over by 11:00 this morning. And then I am going out for lunch with a bunch of folks I like at work!

I am so glad I went to my old home group yesterday. It was so wonderful to sit with my real peeps. It was my friend Ron's 22nd birthday. Once again, they told him that 22 years of sobriety is "a pretty good start." Oh, I am so grateful for that group. I am also grateful that Ron and I run to each other and hug when we see each other across the room. I am grateful that we say "I love you" to each other. Did I ever tell you that I started knitting in meetings after I got so angry I threw a cup of (hot) coffee at someone in a meeting? Well, that someone was my friend Ron. And do you know that I didn't even remember that yesterday until my buddy Elmer leaned over and whispered something about me throwing coffee at Ron. I forgot all about it! I bet Ron did too. Ron is a totally different person today and I am too.... by the Grace of a Loving God.

"If we were to live, we had to be free of anger. The grouch and the sudden rage were not for us. Anger is the dubious luxury of normal men, but for us alcoholics it is poison." -- As Bill Sees It, p. 5 (quoting Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 66 - but paraphrased and I like this version better - it is a lot more clear than "the grouch and the brainstorm.")

10 comments:

dAAve said...

I'll bet that you handle the office stuff just fine because ...
you've taken all the proper action. The rest is Step 3.

Scott W said...

Suit up and show up. That's the ticket. Enjoy that lunch!

Pam said...

Maybe you should offer Ron one of your suites...but he may not be "like that" ya know.
:)..hoping everything turned out just as you hoped today.

Syd said...

I'm sure that you are looking just great. Hope that all went well and that you had a good lunch.

Gwen said...

Hope your day all worked out. When you read this your big to do will be over so most likely "you made it" ;)

Happy Monday!

P.S. ~ Hard to picture you chucking your coffee at anyone. What a blessing and glad it twas not me :)

Kathy Lynne said...

There is always at least one knitter in the meetings I go to. Now I know why! Hope it all went well for you today.

AAwoken said...

"I am going to wear a favorite pink silk sweater that I love and that will not be too hot." - Oh Freud, where are you?
I am sure that all worked out just fine.

Mary Christine said...

What would Freud say about a pink sweater? !no comprende!

Scott said...

remind me to wear a poncho if I ever get to a meeting with you :-) I hope your day went a-ok!

AAwoken said...

Too hot!!!!!!