Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Migraine

I woke up at 3:30 this morning with a migraine.  It was a few minutes before I could get up to take the migraine medication I have been prescribed.  I took it, went back to bed, and woke up at 7 a.m. without a headache.  How cool is that?  I do, however, feel sluggish and dull.  

I am grateful this isn't a hangover.  I marvel to think that I used to feel this way or worse on a daily basis - voluntarily?!!!  Or was it voluntary?  

I personally don't believe that I really had a choice in drinking.  I think that if you are an alcoholic you are pretty powerless over alcohol - I think there is a step about that.... but most of us get to AA and talk about how powerfully we have QUIT drinking, and how we CHOOSE to be sober today, etc.  OH, and then we say "It works, IF you WORK it!"  Oh, we think we are some powerful people!  

"The alcoholic at certain times has no effective mental defense against the first drink.  Except in a few rare cases, neither he nor any other human being can provide such a defense.  His defense must come from a Higher Power."  -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 43

12 comments:

Trailboss said...

I am glad the meds worked for you. I can so relate to migraines.

Anonymous said...

This is my third morning waking up without a hangover and it IS so glorious. I had forgotten that the sun isn't painful to look at and that coffee tastes so incredibly good when sober! Oh and listening to the birds is such a pleasure...

I'm going to try to find where the nearest meeting is and map out a bus route. I moved to the country, but this is CT, there has to be one near a bus route. I hope. This blog is so cozy and comforting during difficult moments. Thank you!
~S

Lou said...

What I enjoy about your blog,Scott W, Pam, Steveroni,several others is that you are humble about your recovery. I know that is part of the steps, but not everyone practices it.

My son's addiction has humbled me
(as in brought to my knees) and I'm a better person for it.

Anonymous said...

PS I'm really nervous about going to a meeting...I'm a bit shaky still...is it okay not to talk to anyone? I picture just going and listening....How much $ should I bring for a contribution? ( I hope you don't mind my asking this in the comments section).

~S

Mary Christine said...

Dear S., It is natural to be nervous, but remember that everyone there at one time sat in your chair - at their first meeting. They all understand, and are more than happy to help you. You do not have to say anything, but it would probably be better to at least talk to one person if you can. You can throw one or two dollars in the basket when they pass it - or you can skip it. Some groups ask that newcomers not contribute. It depends on the group.

Really - you cannot screw this up - except by not going. We all understand. Please let us know how your first meeting goes.

Thanks for sharing this with me. It makes my heart glad.

Anonymous said...

Your answer makes it seem so much less intimidating-- I will let you know, agian: Thank you so much!

~S

♥Shann♥ said...

LOL MC... I love you!
and S! I am glad to hear you are going to a meeting! Hang in there and let us know how it goes
Shann

Pam said...

Perhaps 4 inch heels will give some people an altitude headache....hmmmm
Remember when you did not think there was a medicine that would help, then you asked your doctor for help...and recieved it????

AlkySeltzer said...

How did THIS happen? First time in 3 weeks, I don't know what to comment. It's just all so good, and the comments, and S., and, well, how does it get any better?

S., it can be SO much easier--well, simpler, if ya can hook up with someone--a guy (grin)-- and receive face-to-face guidance in this sobering endeavor. Peace!
Steve E.

Scott W said...

Yea! We have a newcomer! How exciting.

~S, I truly hope your first meeting is the start of your new life. In the fellowship you will find release from worry and fear and find a lot of love and hope.

Zane-nawwaa said...

MC, good for your vanished headache. Hang in there S, MC gives good advice. We all are rooting for you.

Laura said...

Good Morning MC...

Being a migraine sufferer, I winced on your first sentence. Thank God the medicine took hold and your day was salvaged!

I applaud all of you....I just do. At our meeting last night, we had open mic for all and hearing the struggles, yet victories, for several makes me proud of, let's me pray for and gives me hope for all who are admitting they are powerless. Someday, maybe I'll hear those words from Cliff....

Thanks, everyone, for bringing me into the fold. :)

xox