It was great to get back to work yesterday. The couple of miles on the treadmill yesterday morning really hurt my body and by noon, I was singing a song about how much pain I was in. My next door office neighbor exclaimed "Yay, Mary's back!" She said it was almost unbearably quiet while I was gone. I do make a lot of noise. I sing songs, I swear, I talk to my computer, I talk to people who aren't in my office, and then I sing more songs... some of which I compose on the spot, like my ode to pain yesterday.
So, I made a couple of decisions yesterday. I am going to quit running for a while. I have got to get this sciatic nerve to quiet down. I will go out and walk instead of run. I will walk the 3.1 miles of the run portion of my triathlon.... after swimming 1/2 mile, and biking 12 miles. And I called my prayer partners from my church and told them I would not be coming back on Thursdays anymore :( It was sad, but I needed to do it. I left that church in February, and I need to stop going back once a week. I can do the one hour of prayer at my new church on Monday evening. It will not be the same, but who knows? maybe it will be better. I don't know.
One of the most liberating things about getting sober was learning that I could change my mind. I thought there was shame in it and that I needed to have a good reason - usually a fight that I would create. It is nice to be able to change my mind, adjust my plans, talk to people, end things on a good note. Nice? No, really it is a big fat miracle for me to be able to do these things.
Have a Great Sober Tuesday everyone. (that kind of sounds like a Charlie Brown title, doesn't it?)