Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Waiting for daylight

It's light outside, but not real sunshiney bright yet, so I will wait a minute before getting on my bike.  I ride through areas that do have mountain lions and other wildlife that scares the crap out of me.  Did you know that the dusk and dawn hours are when most wildlife attacks on humans happen?  Too bad, because dawn is my favorite time of the day.  

It was great to get back to work yesterday.  The couple of miles on the treadmill yesterday morning really hurt my body and by noon, I was singing a song about how much pain I was in.  My next door office neighbor exclaimed "Yay, Mary's back!"  She said it was almost unbearably quiet while I was gone.  I do make a lot of noise.  I sing songs, I swear, I talk to my computer, I talk to people who aren't in my office, and then I sing more songs... some of which I compose on the spot, like my ode to pain yesterday.  

So, I made a couple of decisions yesterday.  I am going to quit running for a while.  I have got to get this sciatic nerve to quiet down.  I will go out and walk instead of run.  I will walk the 3.1 miles of the run portion of my triathlon.... after swimming 1/2 mile, and biking 12 miles.   And I called my prayer partners from my church and told them I would not be coming back on Thursdays anymore :(  It was sad, but I needed to do it.  I left that church in February, and I need to stop going back once a week.  I can do the one hour of prayer at my new church on Monday evening.  It will not be the same, but who knows? maybe it will be better.  I don't know.  

One of the most liberating things about getting sober was learning that I could change my mind.  I thought there was shame in it and that I needed to have a good reason  - usually a fight that I would create.  It is nice to be able to change my mind, adjust my plans, talk to people, end things on a good note.  Nice?  No, really it is a big fat miracle for me to be able to do these things.

Have a Great Sober Tuesday everyone.  (that kind of sounds like a Charlie Brown title, doesn't it?)

11 comments:

Scott W said...

I am a big fat miracle, too. Yay!

Mary Christine said...

Sure enough! I nearly had a collision with a deer! Holy Crap! I slammed on my brakes, and it ran off. But my legs and arms started a'shakin'.

fiddlemn said...

"Have a Great Sober Tuesday everyone". Yep, Like "Celebrate the RETURN OF THE GREAT PUMPKIN", everyone"! Except that OUR "Great Pumpkin"--our miracle of sobriety-- is REAL. Enjoy the Present Moment, and the rest of today's moments, in a grateful manner.

Steve E.

dAAve said...

I'm glad you're gonna give the running a break. That may be the first step toward improving your back.

Syd said...

Sounds sensible, especially if you are hurting. Best to listen to what your body is saying.

veganmama said...

I didn't even realize it until I read your post, but I, too, feel liberated by the idea that I can change my mind without feeling guilty or creating unnecessary drama. Yay!

♥Shann♥ said...

I can relate with the relief of knowing yea, I can change my mind, and not have to make it into something more... I get it. Its kinda where I am at right now. Thanks for your suggestion. I hope you have a great day

dirtydishes said...

Thanks for the part about changing your mind. Glad that both you and the dear are OK. I bet he was shaking too.

Trudging said...

Hi Marry!

BHM said...

Deer meets bike? Oh,man you would not be running for awhile.Glad you made it safely.

Pam said...

Oh girl I am a big fat miracle ;)
It's so great to read your thoughts on your blog again.
My God Mary...don't go place where wild animals live...they don't want you there!
Oh how I would love to sit and make up songs with you :)
Little bear bait.