It was great to get back to work yesterday. The couple of miles on the treadmill yesterday morning really hurt my body and by noon, I was singing a song about how much pain I was in. My next door office neighbor exclaimed "Yay, Mary's back!" She said it was almost unbearably quiet while I was gone. I do make a lot of noise. I sing songs, I swear, I talk to my computer, I talk to people who aren't in my office, and then I sing more songs... some of which I compose on the spot, like my ode to pain yesterday.
So, I made a couple of decisions yesterday. I am going to quit running for a while. I have got to get this sciatic nerve to quiet down. I will go out and walk instead of run. I will walk the 3.1 miles of the run portion of my triathlon.... after swimming 1/2 mile, and biking 12 miles. And I called my prayer partners from my church and told them I would not be coming back on Thursdays anymore :( It was sad, but I needed to do it. I left that church in February, and I need to stop going back once a week. I can do the one hour of prayer at my new church on Monday evening. It will not be the same, but who knows? maybe it will be better. I don't know.
One of the most liberating things about getting sober was learning that I could change my mind. I thought there was shame in it and that I needed to have a good reason - usually a fight that I would create. It is nice to be able to change my mind, adjust my plans, talk to people, end things on a good note. Nice? No, really it is a big fat miracle for me to be able to do these things.
Have a Great Sober Tuesday everyone. (that kind of sounds like a Charlie Brown title, doesn't it?)
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I am a big fat miracle, too. Yay!
Sure enough! I nearly had a collision with a deer! Holy Crap! I slammed on my brakes, and it ran off. But my legs and arms started a'shakin'.
"Have a Great Sober Tuesday everyone". Yep, Like "Celebrate the RETURN OF THE GREAT PUMPKIN", everyone"! Except that OUR "Great Pumpkin"--our miracle of sobriety-- is REAL. Enjoy the Present Moment, and the rest of today's moments, in a grateful manner.
Steve E.
I'm glad you're gonna give the running a break. That may be the first step toward improving your back.
Sounds sensible, especially if you are hurting. Best to listen to what your body is saying.
I didn't even realize it until I read your post, but I, too, feel liberated by the idea that I can change my mind without feeling guilty or creating unnecessary drama. Yay!
I can relate with the relief of knowing yea, I can change my mind, and not have to make it into something more... I get it. Its kinda where I am at right now. Thanks for your suggestion. I hope you have a great day
Thanks for the part about changing your mind. Glad that both you and the dear are OK. I bet he was shaking too.
Hi Marry!
Deer meets bike? Oh,man you would not be running for awhile.Glad you made it safely.
Oh girl I am a big fat miracle ;)
It's so great to read your thoughts on your blog again.
My God Mary...don't go place where wild animals live...they don't want you there!
Oh how I would love to sit and make up songs with you :)
Little bear bait.
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