Monday, December 18, 2006

Still Sick

I just woke up. The wheezing was so bad last night, at one point I was wondering how the birds were singing in the middle of the night in the middle of the winter - but it was me. This is my third day without running. I hope it is not many more days, I miss it terribly and will lose fitness.

Last night, instead of going to the meeting and spreading germs, I got on the phone with AA friends. It was remarkable to me that the people who are sober a few years are busy complaining about traffic, prices, other people's behavior - while my friends who have been sober 30 years or so, just wanted to talk about how wonderful life is. I would have to say that I am somewhere in the middle of this equation, but hoping to get closer to the 30 year behavior some day. I guess I can make a conscious effort towards this by just trying to focus on what's good instead of what's bad!

"If we examine every disturbance we have, great or small, we will find at the root of it some unhealthy dependency and its consequent unhealthy demand. Let us, with God's help, continually surrender these hobbling liabilities. Then we can be set free to live and love; we may then be able to twelfth-step ourselves, as well as others, into emotional sobriety." -- As Bill Sees It, p. 288

16 comments:

dAAve said...

I'm obviously in the first group as I find fault with everyone who uses no common sense. And this is from the guy who thinks the world hates him while he is receiving gifts from the world.
Maybe you can stay fit by dreaming about running? No, I don't think so.

Christine said...

sure hope you are feeling better but hope too you find yourself being kind to you and resting instead of running too soon.

Happy belated birthday. You sound blessed and I hapen to believe your joy is just around the bend if not already in sight. Such joy in living you write about. Hope it sinks into your fingers and toes

Tab said...

"It was remarkable to me that the people who are sober a few years are busy complaining about traffic, prices, other people's behavior - while my friends who have been sober 30 years or so, just wanted to talk about how wonderful life is"
I totally know what you mean!
so true indeedy.
okay..you take good care of yourself little missy..lol
Hope you feel better soon:)

Trudging said...

I hope that you are feeling better girlfriend.

Designer Girl said...

You won't lose too much fitness. It's amazing how quickly your body's muscle memory and training kick in when you haven't been exercising and then start back. And, we're not talking about months or even weeks and weeks here. But, you need to take it easy exercise-wise until you get over this. Just listen to your body, and do what is good for it. You need to heal.

I wish I lived close by and could bring you some chicken soup and hot tea! Veg out on the couch and catch up on your fave movies and reading, 'kay?

Love and hugs!! xoxoxo

P.S. Boots sends kitty cuddles, too. =^.^=

Diego said...

Great quote...Best wishes to you and I'm praying for a speedy recovery (like right NOW would be OK)....Love you...Diego

Pam said...

Good for you, for now wanting to spread germs! Ahhh let your tired body rest awhile.......there's plenty of time for running.

AAwoken said...

Get well....now!
There, my magic invocation for wellness..

Trudging said...

Oh and by the way, Happy Birthday

Meg Moran said...

just rest today, breathe in, breath out, trust God...hope you feel better soon

Sober @ Sundown said...

Nice post..... still have to be reminded to stay positive.

Scott said...

ooh good Bill Nugget there... good one!

MC, I sure hope ya get well soon, my friend! I'd run for you but well... I hate running. I wont even run after food, lol But, I will walk on my treadmill quickly for awhile on your behalf!

again juice (cranberry is great!), chicken soup, rest and water!! I hope ya get to feelin' better soon, and congrats to you Broncos!

Redhead Gal said...

I hope you are feeling better soon, MC.

Anonymous said...

So very true. I have been working hard in the last 6 months to concentrate on seeing the good in things rather then focusing on the bad. It has made a huge difference in my life. I still am not all that great at it, but when I do it right I seem to have an awesome day. Hope ya feel better soon.

Sober Chick said...

Everyone grows differently at different paces. In time they will have the true spiritual awakening (hopefully). I see some of my sisters that are very sick, and I embrace that. I am thankful that I have gratitude today for my life and it is not me (is that selfish?). Sadly I have seen a few old timers that give me no hope but they still teach me how not to be.

Isn't it great that we learn from each other.

Sorry that you are ill. I think when a person gets sick it is because they are healthy mentally and physically. Any virus would die to live in a healthy environment. With all your exercising and spiritual work but of course a virus wants to have you as a host.

:)

Muah!

Shannon said...

ooh that is one of my favorite readings.. I think it comes from the language of the heart... and I too hope to get to 30 yr old behavior.. ahahahhah you made me think whn you mentioned the people complaining... thats me complain complain complain.. know wonder I am sooo no happy... like daave says I hope you get back to your abnormal self and me as well... sheesh and feel better soon...